For much of my life, I was drawn to relationships with wounded warriors — men who carried power like a weapon instead of a prayer. There was a magnetism there, an intensity that felt like love but often left me feeling unseen, unheld, or overpowered. I didn’t yet know that what I was searching for in them was the healing of something within me — the distorted masculine energy I had internalized, inherited, and learned to survive.

For the last six years, something ancient has been awakening in me—a wild, wise, elemental energy that at first whispered, then roared. It began in a shamanic journey, when a black dragon emerged and spoke directly to my soul:
“It is time to take your power back.”

That dragon was my first teacher in this realm. He told me the Divine Feminine was rising—and that I carried part of her fire.

In our modern world, the concept of “selfishness” has become warped and confused. We’re caught between two distorted poles—on one side, the belief that caring for ourselves is indulgent or wrong. On the other, a hyper-individualistic culture that teaches us to place our desires above all else.

Neither of these extremes brings us closer to truth. Neither brings us into union with Source, or in right relationship with life.

For years, I’ve walked with Sekhmet—a divine force of protection, transformation, and truth. In May, I’m weaving her presence into my Reiki sessions in a new way.

In 2019, in the midst of a profound healing crisis, Sekhmet came to me in a vision. It was crystal clear—she stood before me as if in physical form. I could see the golden hue of her irises, her pupils dilated as she gazed into my soul. Holding her staff with regal power, she asked me directly, “Are you ready?”

Let’s talk about what happens when you stop dimming your light.

When your power starts rising really rising—it’s gonna trigger the fuck out of people.

I’m watching it happen in real time. In the last few days, folks have been crawling out of the woodwork with their projections. One man even commented, “Aren’t we special…”

Mars has officially strutted into Leo, and the cosmos is ready to roar with passion, courage, and creativity! Let me hear you Rooooaaaaarrrr!!!!

After a long stretch of internal tension, this fire sign placement calls us to take center stage in our own lives — to move with heart, to express, and to lead with authenticity.

There’s a kind of ache that comes from being misunderstood. For much of my life, I’ve felt like I was speaking a different language—one that only a few people could truly hear.

I used to try so hard to explain myself. To be understood. To be gotten.

But the truth is: I’m not for everyone. And neither are you.

It’s taken me years to embrace that. To let go of the pressure to fit into someone else's version of who they think I should be. To stop twisting myself into something more digestible, less “too much,” less “too deep.”

There comes a time—often many times—in each of our lives when we are called to stand in our truth. It may not come with flashing lights or fanfare. It might come in the quiet of a sleepless night, in the silence after heartbreak, or in the messy middle of transition. But the call is always clear, even when we feel clouded: Will you be true to yourself, even when it's hard?

For me, that call came when I was just 24 years old.

I had two babies—one was four, the other just one. I was in chronic pain from two herniated discs and had just experienced incontinence. That moment broke something open inside me. I knew, with crystal clarity, that I could not go on like this. Something had to change.

I’ve felt this pain before—the pressure at the base of my skull, the energetic swirling that signals something deep is shifting. It’s shown up during moments of massive healing and awakening over the last 8 years. But this time… it felt different.

Maybe it’s because I now have the language. The understanding. The tools to recognize an atlas activation when it happens—to know that this gateway at the back of the head opens when Spirit is preparing to move through us in a new way.

“You are so much stronger than you even think you are,

Let your heart, let your heart lead the way—

That’s what she’d say…”

—Andy Grammer, That's What She'd Say

This verse has been playing on a loop in my head all morning. Over and over like a mantra. Like a message from beyond. And I know—it is.

In just fifteen days, it will be the 34th anniversary of my mother’s death. Most years, I move through this time with steadiness. A soft ache, a sacred remembering. But this year, something is different. Something is deeper. Something is rising.

For the first time since 1861, Neptune—the planet of dreams, spirituality, and higher consciousness—has moved into Aries, the sign of action, courage, and initiation. This shift marks the end of passive spirituality and the beginning of embodied, fearless spiritual leadership.

For the past 13 years, Neptune in Pisces dissolved illusions, awakened intuition, and guided us inward. Now, in Aries, it activates the fire within—calling us to take real, tangible action to build the world we envision.

Betrayal by someone you trusted can feel like a deep wound that refuses to heal. The pain, the anger, and the self-doubt can consume you, making it hard to move forward. If you’re struggling to let go of someone who hurt you, know that you’re not alone. Here are some steps to help you release the pain and reclaim your power.

A few years ago, I went on a second date with someone I barely knew. He was attractive enough, the conversation was okay, but something in me felt off. Still, I brushed it aside — I didn’t want to seem too much or too picky, and honestly, I was craving connection.

The night ended with us having sex, even though I didn’t really want to. My body wasn’t a yes. My heart wasn’t a yes. But I didn’t say no. I didn’t speak up for myself. I went along with it, and afterward, I felt hollow — not because of the physical experience, but because I had once again abandoned myself.